Money: The Root of All Evil

Actually it's the love of money that is the root of all evil, but that's neither here nor there. As the bible says in Luke 16:13 "No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money." Now neither Ben nor I are devoted to money. But that does not mean that we can be financially irresponsible. We are stewards of the money God has given us. The problem is, I absolutely HATE talking about money, and Ben is HORRIBLE at keeping track of his money. So this basically leaves me in charge of what I hate talking about. So here I am sitting at my computer, looking over all these sheets which are designed to help me organize everything so that I am aware of my finances.

But the problem is, with us moving just after our wedding, and therefore NOT having jobs when we get there immediately, I have no idea what our income is going to be. And right now, only having me on insurance, I have no idea what our insurance will be when we are on it together. I know what our rent will be, but I don't know what other housing expenses we might have. So I don't know how much we will tithe and how much taxes will be taken out, and that makes it really hard to make up a budget.

Sooooooooo annoying. So I guess what I'm complaining about it more unknown. Which frankly, seems to be a theme in my life right now... complaining about the unknown. Complaining about not knowing about jobs... complaining about not knowing how I will handle winter somewhere darker and colder... complaining about not knowing how to plan meals for a whole week in a fiscally responsible (and nutritious) way. No wonder I have been feeling so pathetic lately. Poor me. Poor poor poor me.